Re-Do

Hello, old friends.

I know it's been an unusually long time since my last post. I was in the middle of challenging myself with Jenni's blog everyday in May challenge and I was really, really enjoying it. It's the first challenge I've ever really done since I started blogging not-so-long-ago and it was really expanding my horizons and getting me exposed to thinking out-side of the blog (did you like that? i know....cheesy).

So, why did I stop?

Well....
the longer you walk with GOD and the longer you expose a vulnerable heart to HIM, the more HE changes you. You start to be able to hear HIS "voice". That isn't meant in some spooky, over-spiritual, Schizophrenic kind-of-way. It isn't meant to freak you out or make you feel like you must be doing something wrong if you're a Christian and you aren't "hearing" voices in the room next to you. GOD's voice isn't like a scary movie with a baritone voice echoing in the hallways, in your closets and under your bed. GOD speaks to everyone differently. Sometimes it's just that feeling in your gut that tells you that you're going to be ok when you're having a bad day. Sometimes it's that friend that says something so powerfully to you that you wonder how they got a hold of your diary. For me, HE speaks to me in writing, mostly. Thoughts that I just know aren't my own will start popping in my head and I just write them down and when I read back over it - yep, I know that's GOD.

As you spend more and more time with HIM, HE starts to "talk" to you more about your life. Sometimes it will be about an area of your life HE wants to change for the better. Sometimes it's about the way you talk to your spouse or your parents or your children. Sometimes it's simply just to say how much HE loves you <--- those are always my favorite talks.

This whole month GOD has been talking to me. More than I think I've ever heard HIM before. Without sharing a lot of things that I don't feel released to share, HE has been working on the way that I have thought about myself, what my future holds for me and the way that I live my life currently. It's not that I haven't lived a life honorable to HIM. It's just that HE wants me to take my honor to the next level. You can be a Christian and be dry in areas that HE wants you flowing in.

What does all this have to do with the first paragraph of this post? Well, it has to do with the fact that sometimes GOD even speaks to us about the littlest of things in our life such as social media. I started out this blog for a very specific purpose. I wanted to use it to touch the lives of those who read it - to energize them, to encourage them, to speak light into their darkness and hope into their hopeless. I wanted GOD to direct my posts. Not because I want to be over-spiritual. No, "spirituality" is not a thing. "Spirituality" is an identification with GOD's Holy Spirit and that means I have to walk where HE walks and talk what HE talks.

It's not that I think my "Friday Favorites" posts are wrong to post or that doing this challenge Jenni posted was somehow "wrong". GOD isn't a dictator. HE isn't a fun-sucker. HE didn't tell me to stop posting those things. I think HE just renewed in me a realization of what social media impacts. It reaches out soooo much further than we think it does. It speaks to more people than we even intend, sometimes. So I think I just have a renewed awareness - a renewed 'vision' and focus for what I want my blog to be. It doesn't mean I won't post more 'funny' posts or that suddenly it will become serious and stuffy and boring. It just means that I'm trying to stop the horse and turn the reins over to GOD. HE does so much better at this stuff than I do. It just means that I don't want to operate/post on pure emotions, anymore. My FB is even getting an over-haul. I've used that for so many years now to "vent" on and take political stances on and shamefully and embarrassingly - admittedly - used for a source of gossip. FB has become a mechanism for people to open their lives so vulnerably that satan has such an easy job, now, of supplying so much material for gossip. It's like sugar to cancer cells - the cells keep getting larger and larger because they have so much to feed off of. FB is a feeding trough for a morbidly obese gossip monster.

I guess I share all this just simply to say.... I am going to be more purposeful in my use of social media. If our lives are a "vapor"....I want to make sure I'm leaving the largest puddles I possibly can before it's all gone.